Rindu = Emo?

let me ask u one thing,
is it possible
to be emosional when we miss someone too badly?
like, too bad that we kinda feel mad because the person we miss is too busy to meet us
is it unfair to him/her?
do i deserve to feel like this when it takes 20-30 mins for an sms/ym to be replied because the person is too busy with studies? (or mayb the precious friends?)
ok i should stop
o' Allah tenangkanlah hati ni.. :'(

As Always

it's this feeling again
oh i hate it!
i don't know how to describe it
if u were me, u would know
it's either i hate my life, or i'm jealous of others'
but i don't know
like, i really really don't know
kenapa kena rasa mcm ni?
i hate it when ppl don't reply my msg or ym or don't answer my calls
oh actually, it's specifically to my loved one
yes, you!
benda kecik je kan?
but wut to do, it's just me n this feeling
and at the same time, my ex is contacting me again
i don't know if i should layan dia baik2 or not
i never hate him
i even dream of him, remember?
but i know it's not fair to my new life(/love?)
sometimes i just feel like, i don't need this new love yet
but things can't be turned back
apparently, he doesn't understand me the way i thought he does
ohmaigod diyana change your attitude la pls!
ckp tak suka pompuan emo, but who's emo now??

study lah!

happy 3rd birthday to my bumblebee <3 <3 <3

Pre-Holidays

I've just come back from my 2nd home after 3 days of cuti-sendiri-ambik
i'm in love, so what? hehe
actually, i don't really know what i feel
i know it's love, but i'm afraid we would get confused between love or lust
7 times in 3 days, that's quite a lot for an undeclared couple
but it was undeniably good B-)
blank lah xtau nk tulis apa
mayb its a sign for me to get my ass back to work
i love u my new syg :)

Blog

I feel like writing a blog that is readable, interesting, less emotion-based, perhaps informative but but not too serious, so yea, good luck to myself! :P
Soon lah yeah, now mcm busy and need to think of what to write about 1st :)

mengarut je ni

rasa nak luah perasaan tapi xtau kat sape sbb aku mmg xde kawan rapat yang boleh cite mcm2 pun.mayb ada tapi still lain org lain bnda bleh cite.im just upset with my life rite now.dah lama tak rasa sedih dgn hidup sndiri which slalu je rasa down dlu but since aku baik dgn this one guy i think my life has changed but then aku baru sedar that it hasn't really changed completely.still ada some parts yg x best, surprisingly it involves him.tadi aku tgk gmbr dia n kwn2 dia which made me realize that i would never ever be in that group bcoz i dun think diorg suka aku to be in that group pun.or mayb its just my feeling but still aku rasa x best jgk.things might be different if aku pegi blaja kat monash dulu kan.ah fcuk it.yang aku plg sedih is i've given up some of my friends bcoz he doesn't like me to spend times with them but then aku baru sedar yg dunia aku mmg cmtu, x mcm dia dgn dunia yg ada kwn laki pompuan with no deep feelings n bleh huhahuha so dia pun x blh slalu spend times with me sbb nnt apa kata kwn2 dia plak kan.tapi aku x bleh plak nk jaga hati kwn2 aku kan.yea i know diorg bknnya kwn2 biasa sbb diorg laki n aku pompuan n kalo spend time pun bknnya ramai2 tp still ada je time spend ramai2 tp sbb diorg ada feelings ngn aku so i have to give them up.so now aku dh xde kwn slain dia n kwn usrah.adil ke? aku pun kena jaga hati diorg kot.tak ke? aku pun nk kwn2 lain jgk.tak patut ke? i syg you n i know this is not good but i'm just mad n upset with myself, not you.i know you didn't mean to do this but i also know that you just didn't realise that our worlds are different.i dun know how to explain it to you so takpelah i'll just keep this to myself.i luv you but i'm sorry, i guess im really not ready to be in a serious relationship yet.ok puas hati ckit.bye.

Mixed Tape

Let the pictures do all the talking






what can you say? :P

Why?

I miss him.

I dream of him every single night.